Another day, another scarf I’d like to own. Andrew Garfield & Emma Stone on the set of The Amazing Spider-Man 2.
"Do not chase people. Be you and do your own thing and work hard. The right people who belong in your life will come to you, and stay."-Wu Tang Clan (via wrec)
"Be soft. Do not let the world make you hard. Do not let pain make you hate. Do not let the bitterness steal your sweetness. Take pride that even though the rest of the world may disagree, you still believe it to be a beautiful place."-Kurt Vonnegut (via arabarabarab)
Easier said than done. But, so is the rest of the Bible, and that’s fine. I know it helps us to work towards a greater purpose and to be the person He wants us to be. And this is what I’m striving for. But, sometimes… just sometimes, I want Him to tell me exactly what to say or how to handle certain situations or how to love one another.
“Love one another.” - John 13:34
Problems at home. Problems here. I wish I could physically be in two places at once. If only…
If you ask my best friends what kind of person I am, they’ll tell you that I am caring, intelligent, assertive, outgoing, independent, and a great friend. They’ll also tell you that I usually say whatever is on my mind. Call me blunt. But, this is who I am.
Four years is a long time; a person can change. I can definitely attest to this. I had joined this club/organization that I had initially felt great about. Four years ago, I loved being a part of this group. Everyone was friendly, loving, and genuine. I was able to be myself that first year I’d joined. Over the past three years, I have slowly become someone who I don’t necessarily want to be. I tend to keep everything in — emotions, feelings, thoughts, etc. There is a good to this. With the good, there is also a bad… at least in this case. The good: keeps me and my mouth from getting in trouble. The bad: I become very judgmental and become very hateful. I become passive [aggressive]. This leads to blow ups and outbursts. Surprisingly enough, I am only like this when I am not around my best friends — I essentially have learned to be two different people.
Do I want to be this way? No, of course not. I don’t want to pretend to be somebody I’m not nor want to be. What does this mean? Why haven’t I found people who I can be myself around? Am I that intimidating? Am I not making the effort? What am I doing different now than before?
I don’t know. Will I ever know? I just don’t know. You know, a kettle can only keep quiet until it starts whistling, right? I think I am that kettle.
New Year’s New Life resolution…is to be intentional.
With everything I do.